“Q: You said that everybody you met has garbage, so I gave up hope.

P: But I said throw away the garbage. Did you do it?

Q: No.

P: So you’re right; there is no hope.  Hope itself is garbage. Expectation is garbage. Expectation to become something else at a  later date is a basket of garbage in your head. If you don’t want to throw it away, if you like it, then keep it. We need someone to  do this job also. Every city needs people to remove the garbage. Since I said throw away the garbage, and you have not thrown, you must like this profession.

Q: I don’t like it.

P: But you said there no hope of throwing away the garbage. What does it mean? If you like garbage, you are garbage. You become what you think. If you think of garbage, you become garbage. At the time you are thinking garbage, at that time, who are you? Who you should be? If you think of garbage at that time, what do you smell all around?

Q: Garbage

P: Garbage, yes. You will be so accustomed to garbage you will live in the garbage dump itself. You will not like to go out of the garbage. This manifestation is garbage. When you give rise to a thought, you invite garbage, and you must suffer. This thought is garbage. When you give rise, all the garbage is manifested suffering, and death manifests.

Don’t give rise to a thought, and tell me. Don’t just listen. This must be experienced. Don’t give rise to this thought “I am so and so”. Don’t give rise to this thought I, and tell me where you are. Don’t think; just do it, and tell me. Where now?

Q: Nowhere

P: In nowhere do you smell garbage?

Q: No

P: So stay there in nowhere, and what is the problem here?

Q: It’s a problem that I can’t find any difficulty.

P: Go deeper and tell me again. Look underneath. It is fathomless. Go down deeper and tell me. Don’t think. Thinking is garbage. Go deeper.  You said the problem is that there is no problem. Go deeper below this and see.

Q: I am free.

P: Free of problems and free of no problems.

So what have you done to be free? Look within yourself and what do you see? Don’t look here and there or nowhere. Then this look is no-look. this look is consciousness it self. Where there is no there and no here and no where, this is consciousness itself, from where everything arises and falls.

Everything arises and everything falls. And you are not touched. These manifestations, destructions, dissolutions – you are not touched, not affected in the least. This manifestation is a painting in the emptiness. Can you paint a picture in space? This is a picture, called manifestation, painted into the empty space.

So when you look within, this picture has never been painted. Nobody can ever paint a picture in empty space. You need some wall on which to paint, some canvas on which to paint, some screen on which to paint.

Become the screen and see this painting of manifestation. Actually nothing ever existed. Nothing is still existing. Nothing will exist. This is the ultimate truth, and just by losing I, it is realized.

What is the difficulty? You are not to go anywhere. Simply keep quiet and question. “Who am I? Where am I? What do I want?” And you get the answer instantly.

Once you know, you cannot get out of it. Everywhere you move, you move in consciousness. Before, the levels were different, from unconsciousness to unconsciousness. You were getting lost.

Consciousness alone is, and nothing ever exists beyond this consciousness. Once having known it, you become one with consciousness. There is not subject and no object. there is no experience, and none experienced. This is called freedom from everything.

This the moment, this instant, we are speaking about. I believe you are in the instant. If there is any problem, ask me.

I want you to enter directly into experience and not to understand intellectually. This intellect takes the form of what you think, and you may be cheated again. Everything that you think, that thought manifests.

Once upon a time, you had thought about it, and there it is! Great luck!

Totally conscious is I. All this is I. All the I‘s are within this I. This is total I, in which past, present and future appear.”

excerpt from Papaji Wake Up and Roar by HWL Poonja