one existenceQ: I don’t know whether I can come to terms with the fact that I don’t exist.

Bob: Nobody says anything about non-existence. You are existence itself. There is only one existence, one presence, one power, one intelligence. Instead of confining yourself to that little pattern you call me, which in the scheme of things is nothing, you’re trying to work it out in the mind. Me can never come to terms with it. As Nisargadatta says, “You’re trying to grasp it with a concept – and  you fail. And you are bound to fail.” He means you’ll always fail while you’re trying to grasp it with a concept.


But, full stop right now, without a thought, are there any concepts going on? Yet have you stopped seeing? Have you stopped hearing? Have you stopped being aware? In that instant without a concept, without a thought, before another concept arises, you realise that you are existence; you are the living-ness, the being-ness. Do you have to come to terms with that? You can only come to terms with it with another concept. It’s just as it is – unadorned, naked awareness – not adorned by concepts. As the poem says, “It’s closer than your breathing, nearer than your hands and feet.” you’ve never been away from it. Never could.

Taken from Only That – the life and teaching of Sailor Bob Adamson

by Kalyani Lawry